Expectations

I find it interesting that my name is manyeqspectations. Let’s think about what that means. I do feel like I have many expectations for my life that I set for myself. For example, survive high school, graduate college, have a job I like, be happy in life etc. I know it’s going to be a long and bumpy road, but I’m okay with that.

What I don’t like is this: When other people have high expectations for me that I do not approve of. Yes, I agree in people pushing me so that I can excel. For people having expectations of be because they know that I can reach them if I try.

But those people who have too many unrealistic expectations of me. You cannot force someone, manipulate someone and push them past their limits because you want the outcome. You cannot change someone because you expected them to be a certain way and they’re not. I am me. So don’t make me someone I’m not. I am doing what I can to make the most of every moment. So don’t be greedy and set the bars too high when you know I can’t reach them. I’ll set my own expectations and you set yours. And hopefully we meet somewhere in the middle.

It Carries On

Heart racing

Mind spinning

Loud voices yelling and soft ones crying

Fists pounding

Hands chocking

How much longer,

Until the pain is gone?

Cold metal

Brings peace

Blood runs down pale skin

Heart breaks

Yet the world carries on,

Black and white

The pain

The lies

The deception

Goes on

As if you were never there